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[May. 26th, 2006|04:16 pm] |
I have a beautiful family.
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[May. 7th, 2005|03:41 pm] |
I want to get dressed up and go to the horse races. Kind of like in Pretty woman except we aren't going to watch polo and I'm not a hooker.
This was actually pretty true...
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
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[Jan. 31st, 2005|10:01 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  drained | ] |
kdeekates
If you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you |
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|11:30 am] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  pretty | ] |
i just got black hair dye all over everything. I'm awesome. |
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| stupid Laramie |
[Nov. 28th, 2004|03:46 pm] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | beulah... your mother loves you son | ] |
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[Nov. 25th, 2004|09:32 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| | Emo | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | cindy lauper... time after time | ] |
it never fails that i get lonely this time of year. And being so far away from everyone it makes it jsut that much worse.
I try not to be selfish, but I can't help having this void inide me. One that hurts so bad I almost can't breathe.
I'm happy about myself, for the first time I can remember, I love being me. So much. And that is really something I should be proud of. And I will be, for the rest of my life.
I am so thankful for all of you. I hope you feel the same.
I feel so fucking Emo right now. God.
Oh and I thought you'd all enjoy a picky-a-ture:
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[Nov. 17th, 2004|07:30 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | theshins girls on the Wing | ] |
I just got the best compliment in the world.
Find the boy who's on your level. One that can look you in the eye. He wont be intimidated, he'll be speechless.
I used to be scared that I would become completely comfortable with being alone. And now that I am fine with myself, its not so scary. I like being me. and I'm willing to wait for someone that likes me for being me.
its good to be comfortable with yourself. Its good to grow and learn and understand the world that is aaround you.
Its good to ahve goals and dreams and ambitions. Its good tobe me. |
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[Sep. 10th, 2004|03:19 pm] |
I wish I had more time to update.
Right now I ahve to clean my room and do homework.
I lvoe you and miss you all. |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2004|10:16 pm] |
I guess I'm going to be mushy and vent for a minute.
I miss everyone so much. Its so much harder on days like this. everyone calls and emails and I get letters wanting to check up on me. its nice and i'm glad that I am keeping in touch, but it doesn't stop the fact that it makes insanely homesick. Then my mom and I start fighting because I have to pick a fight about everything and I jsut want to cry.
It will be easier when school starts.
I hope. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2004|07:29 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| | content | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | eliottsmith | ] |
Mom: Ann, no matter what, you will always love your children
Me: Not if they are republicans. I'd rather them be serial killers that republicans.
I love being me.
and I hate people who think its okay to degrade women and then try to justify it. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2004|07:50 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | granddaddy | ] |
I have been trying all day long to change my eyebrow ring, but the little ball thingy will simply not come off. its not fun.
SAD FACE x 10.
Yep, I'm bored. |
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[Jul. 29th, 2004|05:08 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | thewrens | ] |
i leave for Denver in the Morning. I'm wayyyy stoked.
I miss you all. a lot.
I hope you are all taking care of each other, I mean it.
Love. |
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[Jul. 25th, 2004|07:57 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | thelibrarians | ] |
Yeah, guess who is going to denver this weekend?
its going to ruleeee |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|08:02 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | modestmouse | ] |
yeah, my college bookstore so has a Clinique counter in it.
Wyoming Rules. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2004|12:39 am] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  weird | ] |
I had fun tongiht. I really did.
But by the end I felt bad in a way that I shouldn't feel at the end of night of my 18th birthday.
I get sick of people douching out. i get sick of so many empty promises. I get sick of having to say good bye over and over again.
I simply should not be feeling this way right now.
and I don't know why, becuase I did have fun. I was surrounded by people i love. we did all the stuff you are supposed to do on your 18th birthday. And yet I still really want to cry. And I jsut don't know why.
I'm just so tired of things not working out. |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2004|11:33 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  giggly | ] |
yayyyyyyy.
I'm rich and almost not a minor anymore.
So I'm going to pierce something, just cause I can. |
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[Jun. 19th, 2004|11:46 am] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  cranky | ] |
my dad was supposed tobe here at 11. he jsut called to tell me that he wont be here until one. I hate that.
Have a good weekend everyone |
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[May. 29th, 2004|10:56 pm] |
| [ | You're lost already |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | Everyone is an Addict |
| | wilco | ] |
I feel so strange right now.
I am stuck halfway between being undyingly happy and feeling this awful feeling of regret and sadness. For what you ask? So many things that I feel as though my life may emplode around me.
the last month or so have been bittersweet about moving. On one hand, I feel as though I have nothing left here, except a handful of friends that I adore. On the other hand, i feel as though leaving here is like leaving everything I have and ever will have. My biggest fear of all is becoming completely comfortable with being alone. And I am afraid that my so called new start will simply reinforce that fact.
I am sitting here and I want to cry so much. Part out of being scared, part out of being so grateful that I can get out of this fucking town and partly out of complete sadness.
I spent the entire day with my dad today, And for the first time I was no longer with a stranger but I was with someone that actually cared about what happened to me. That was proud of me. That wanted me to do well. FOr the first time didn't look out for his own well being, but wanted to help become everything he wasn't. I sat there at Battle Point Park and looked at my family and realized that for the first time since I can remember, I loved them all. I wasn't mad or disaponted or holding a grudge. i had never been more grateful for them at that moment.
Awww, how sweet, My brother jsut caled me. Just to talk. I love that kid.
I don't know what to feel anymore. I really don't.
I lsot a close friend this week. And as much as I am completely releived of the stress that was brought on by this so called friendshiop, its till feels as though I am missing a limb. I miss him, but on the same token, i hate him and wish bad things upon him.
In 5 and a half weeks I leave this town. I head off for new horizons. All I can do is hope that things turn out for the best. |
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